I don't know why that is exactly. Maybe because my kids are busy with sports and school and homework. Maybe it's because I am busy making cake. Maybe because I went back to school. Maybe it's because of health problems. Maybe because my body is getting older and doesn't recover quite as fast as before. Whatever the reason, I just lost it.
But I really miss that part of me. I want her back. I want to allow myself to compete and let a little of my competitiveness go. No need to win the race - just enjoy the ride - right?
So as I am stepping it up again - getting myself out of bed at 5 am - I am rediscovering the old me - the fire. It is good. I like this.
I think it might just be the trash talk that will soon come into play and my deep rooted desire to beat my husband in the race so I can gloat for months afterwards - who knows? All I know is SHE'S BACK!
Win or lose - GAME ON!!!!!!!!
